The Gate



Parvathi watched the grapes in her hand fall to the ground. She mistakenly imagined them flutter around from too much freedom, like the bloated purple cockroaches bursting out of furniture sunning in the courtyard on a hot day. Instead, they lay there, oozing dispiritedly on the warm stone wishing they could just die. One intrepid grape had flown into the flowers that grew in the solitary quadrilateral of earth where someone had contrived to remove a concrete tile. She wondered if the bombardment had forever changed the life of a small ant population or if it had assailed the spot where she had laid a bee to rest or if the noble flight was resolved in some dog kakka.

The cow behind the red gate looked at her, its liquid brown eyes asking her what it was doing there on a sunday afternoon. Only plastic bags filled with old upma and dead rats blossomed out of the yellow dirt there. She wondered idly what she might accomplish if she lobbed a grape or two at it. Then she wondered where the path outside that gate crawled to. “What is behind the jackfruit tree, cow?” she asked. The cow stared back at her, unmoved. Perhaps it didn’t speak English. Perhaps it was offended that she hadn’t addressed it in proper Kannada. It walked away, presenting its behind, tail swinging at flies dancing around the caked dung.

Reed Ski Cabin Poem

Ye Olde Ski Cabin,
Ye meditation on life perched
on a hillside of snow and splinter;

Between the windowed ice plains outside
unwritten by future snowball fights,
rising to the distant blue mountain peaks
of yet undemonstrated potential;

And the antique rose fire in the stove
drying childhood's mismatched socks,
burning the logs of lessons learned
into orange coals of last year's love;

Is the gentle nudge of present perfection in
the warmth of old books, dogs, marshmallows,
blankets, poker, out-of-tune guitars,
friends, and a room full of laughter.

jan 14th updated oct 25

Creepin'

Today I creeped on a bunch of blogs. Mostly connected to this particular blog which I very much enjoy reading. So much good writing floating about in cyberspace.
This Information Age is creepy. I can sit in my house in the uncharted backwaters of Bangalore (around Lottegollahalli to be more precise) at a little past midnight in my most unflattering ten year old t-shirt and reach into the minds of people half way around the planet. That kind of connectivity should be illegal or heretical or something.

Dear Reader,


I wonder at who you are, where you're from and whatever curious and unexpected string of incidents, incompetencies and inspirations led you to encounter this blog at this particular moment in your life and mine. I started this blog in a burst of youthful enthusiasm, full of confidence, at the age when most teenagers fancy themselves soulful poets and stirring tellers of the universal truths of life, love and death. Unfortunately, four years in a small expensive American liberal arts college known for its academic rigour and low retention rate due to the tendency of its inmates, much like its most famous alumni, a not unknown Mr. Jobs, to regularly drop out, left my confidence in intellectual articulation rather in shambles. After an intense and sordid year long love-hate affair with my senior thesis I emerged with divorce papers and the alimony they call a diploma. I spent the summer rooming with a couple of fellow college inmates, playing the role of the broke and mostly sober recent grad remembering the good times and as time usually has its way, allowing the bad times to be left behind with mismatched socks, rental bills, bookends, notes from a nearly failed class, broken tango shoes, phone numbers of people I'm likely never to see again, and a half-eaten cup of banana yogurt when I moved out to fly twenty four hours back to Bangalore to be reminded by my also recently graduated siblings that I'm one of triplets and must once again, against all evolutionary instinct amicably co-inhabit the parental abode.

So here I am, feeding my sensual appetite on amma's lemon rice and potato fries and xkcd, breaking it down to Ek Tha Tiger music, reading unknown and inspiring Indian bloggers, laughing uncontrollably to Wodehouse and creeping on the neighbors with a gigantic phallic dslr in attempts to capture Real India, and satiating my spiritual cravings on that which I admittedly mostly ignored before I went off to The Foreign; meditation, classical dance, regional languages and all else connected with The Fabled Most Ancient and Wonderous Indian Culture. I'm taking a breather after college to chill briefly with the family before going where the proverbial winds take me. Preferably in a well constructed flying machine. I'll trust the universe to throw me a manual, extra fuel and a co-pilot en route.
  And here you are. Perhaps you're a passing cumulonimbus or nimbostratus, or a distant dormant volcano, or an SR-71 flight manual, or a burst of unseasonal hail, or a flock of sociable magpie geese, or a pit-stop efficient Siberian refueling station or a blue helium balloon lost from a spring wedding or that darn absconding co-pilot. Whatever you are I welcome you to this here my blog. I look forward to making your acquaintance and reading yo' shit.

Love,
 Indialuna